As I recently wrote in my essay, sometimes recipes and words are all that is left behind a person, and that fact of life can be almost unfathomably large. And it almost seems impossible. But it is. It is very real.
You inevitably think of the first time you tried the cookies they introduced you to, you think of the fresh scallions they taught you how to harvest and clean, and you think of the permanence of that never again. So you hold onto the cookie recipe, you hold onto the words and memories, and you stay afloat, the best you can.
So with all of that being said, I give you one of the old-fashioned, traditional cookie recipes, one of my dearest ones, full of walnuts and apricot jam. They only get better the more they stand, so as most of those old cookies, they keep for a very long time. Just make sure to keep them in a sealed box, at room temperature, and enjoy them with gusto.

Ingredients
For the cookies
60 grams icing sugar, sifted
50 grams toasted walnuts, finely ground
50 millilitres fresh lemon juice
2 teaspoons vanilla bean paste
350 grams plain flour
For the assembly
170 grams thick apricot jam80 grams icing sugar, for rolling
Preparation
Briefly whip the softened vegan block butter on its own, then stop the mixer and add in the icing sugar, vanilla, and the fresh lemon juice. Continue whipping until smooth and creamy. Add the ground walnuts and half of the flour, and whip again. At this point, add in the rest of the flour and bring the dough together by hand or with a sturdy spatula.
If the dough is sticky, and it should not be, add a bit more flour.
Let the dough rest in the bowl for about 10 minutes, and in the meantime, let the oven preheat to 180°C, and line two large baking sheets with baking parchment. If you use only one baking sheet, you will have to work in two or three batches.
Roll the dough out into a large, 4 millimeters thick circle, and cut out small circles (2 cm in diameter) using a cookie cutter or a tiny glass. You can also make the circles with a larger diameter, but don't make them thicker. Arrange them onto the baking sheet leaving a bit of space between them, but not too much, because they will not spread.
They might puff up slightly, but they will not spread.
Bake in a nicely preheated oven, at 180°C, for 8-9 minutes, making sure they stay light in colour and they do not overbake.
Roll out the remaining dough in the same fashion, briefly kneading it if necessary, cut out the circles, arrange them on the second baking sheet, and bake in the same fashion, making sure to check them earlier, because they will need a bit less time in the oven, compared to the first batch.
Once the cookies are baked and cooled, add the jam to a sturdy piping bag, and sandwich the cookies together. Even if they don't perfectly match up in shape, that is fine. Abundantly roll them in icing sugar, arrange them on baking sheets and let them set up overnight.
Keep them in a cookie box or in a metal bowl with a lid, so they don't dry out as they stand. Yields around 170 individual cookies or 85 sandwich cookies.








